12-30-08 cont.

Well the last blog posted twice because my impatience made me click the 'Publish Post' button twice.
My bad.

And since I have no clue how to delete a post, I guess ill just rant about some random shit again. Yaay!

I want The Office season 4. And Scrubs seasons 3-7. And Gossip Girl season 1.
I think I may have become a tv-aholic.
If there's even such a thing.

Mmmmhm yup I really have nothing more to say for now.
Oh except for, DISNEYLAND tomorrow! ((=

12-30-08; 2:07 am

December 30th...
Wait, christmas was 5 days ago?!
Say whaaaaa..?

Yeah, it did NOT feel like christmas this year whatsoever.
I had no holiday spirit, I didn't even make those gay little candy bags for people at school like I used to do every year in middle school!
Sad, sad.

But on another side note, 2008 will be officially OVER in less than 2 days.
Yeah that's right, OVER. As in it will no longer be '08. It'll be '09.
Its gonna take me a while to adjust writing '09 in the date -_-x
It was a good year. A pretty boring year but good nonetheless.
So many things have changed.
SO many things.
In good ways and bad I guess.

I became a freshman(inevitably). I got taller(finally). My love for english has turned around and is nearing the 'hate' zone because of my teacher and, in turn, my resentment against math has become almost enjoyable because of mrs decambra(yay[?]). And this, of course, has made me confused even more once again about what I want to do in the future.
Ag. Blag blag blag. Auuughack.

Whatever. Im too tired to talk about this now.

DISNEY ON WEDNESDAY!
OH HAILS YEAH BEYATCH.

-ajk

12-9-08

I HATE PHOTOSYNTHESIS & CELLULAR RESPIRATION
Along with glycolysis, the krebs & calvin cycles, and the electron transport chain.

Late start tomorrow
But im going to visit my old teachers
So I have to get up early anyways -_________-
Yay ms lacerte & the very preggo mrs strand! (=
But then there's a huuuge ass bio test waiting for me at school
UGH school sucks
Im beginning to wonder and worry about what im going to become in the future; what school im going to get into, what im going to major in. I know I wanted to be a lawyer. But im having my doubts now. I don't know if ill be able to fight for a living.
Oh hey lookit that, im going off topic again.

Short post;
Wish me luck on my bio test
And my odyssey test the day after
And my geo test on friday
AUGH shitfuck!

-ajk

11/1/07

Eh. I could care less about him.













Seriously.

oh haaaaay

Well deng. Its been a while since I last blogged huh? Haha my bad.
Lots to say. Lots to do. Lots to think about.
Im a bit fed up with high school. Already.
Im tired of all the change that's going on. With the friends, groups, guys, grades. Its like fuuuuuuuck, yknow? I hate being looked down on. It makes me feel so unconfident and lowly. And im tired of it. Well I guess that means I have to change now huh. Hmmmmm.

GOAL FOR OCTOBER: befriend jushy! [:
& one more: Get my bio grade up. I have a fucking C in that class. A C! >:O

But anywaaaays...

And now. Its october 2nd. Im here at school. Its effin 6! HAHA fricken stayed after school for class committee for 3 hours. Tomorrows the footbal game versus troy. Yaaaaaaay playing [:

Later gator!

411

Lots of stuff happening. &today was the branding iron game agaist walnut!
We whoooooped them! Pahah yeeee brahmas!
Schools pretty fun. But but but...I can't help but think about meeting more new people. I mean, I lalaLOVE my circle don't get me wrong but I've only met...like 6 new people so far.
And speaking of the new people, there's this guy in my bio who's damn cute.
Aaaand speaking of cute, there's this sophmore that looks like matsujun! Its like HOLY SHIT TWIN!
So I want to befriend him.
Becos he's the closest ill get to matsujun ]:
Ominars I start drooling when I think about him HAHA
Ginas going through stress. And im fucking worried. She cried TWICE today. Ugh I am worrrrrrried.

Well this was just a 411 post. More stuff later on.
And since zylstra made us run today, im fucking exhausted.
Later gator.

SHITtake mushroom

I need to write my alpha writing class essays
And I forgot the damn topic.
SHEEEEEEEIT. Im screwed.
AND I told myself to write the topic down during class but did I listen to myself? NO freaking!
And I doubt im going to go early tomorrow. And even if I do im going to be taking me test and UGH
UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH



Okay. Just a week and a half more.
Then its relaxxxxxxation. ...fuckingfinally...
Well I guess im off to do some more alpha hw. D:

My sk update and alpha hw distract me from breaking dawn! >:O


Okay that's all.


-A.

OTA!

Okaaaaay...so I admit, the Over-the-air sidekick lx update crap is preeeeeeeeetty tight. With all the other options and upgrades AND video recording (:
But you still can't watch videos on the internet -_-'

I am RIDICULOUSLY hungry. I didn't eat dinner becos I was fcking exhausted from alpha and so I fell asleep around 9ish. Then woke up at 11. But I didn't feel hungry so I didn't eat. But NOW, at 2:30 am, I am starving. My stomach is growling and snarling like a furious vampire!(no offense) And I can't even go downstairs and get food because my padre is watching some drama on the computer and thinks im asleep. -_________-x

But other than that my day(yesterday) was supercalafragalisticexshpialadocious-ly great! :D

I went to registration todaaay. And ms. Irving is super trooper nice. And I laaaav my schedule:

1. Geometry
2. Spanish 1
3. English 1 honors
4. Bio honors
5. Coed PE
6. Src semester1
6. Ceramics semester2

Okay I know what your thinking. Or...I might not. But anywayzzzzz, ceramics?! Kinda insane, especially cos I am most definitly nooot an an art person. But that's all they had open and I didn't want to leave school early. Mmm oh well. I might like it [: Other than that, I love my schedule! I have spanish w/KCJ, pe with michelle and winnie, and english with ashahn!
Wow. High school. It feels so weird, thinking that im not going to go to Chaparral anymore. Thinking that im not going to see those familiar faces that I've seen and gone to school with for 3 years. Thinking that there's not going to be anymore chill yearbook class or teachers like ms.lacerte or mrs.strand. Thinking that the groups of friends might change, thinking I might change. Hm no, correction, I WILL change; doesn't everyone? Im just hoping its going to be for the better.

Okay, this growling needs to STOP. I need foooooooooood. Ugh, and you'd think my dad would be tired after going to work all day and coming home at 11. But noooooooo, he just KEEPS watching whatever he's watching at 3 in the morning!

I don't think I mentioned this, but Breaking Dawn is AMAZING. Im still Team Edward, but Jacob isn't so bad after all. Well I am too weak to say anything else about it at the moment, but ill have another post on it :]

Ugh maybe ill just sleep through my hunger -_-x

Well wow, this post seems long. Okay, gnight!



-A.

'The best part of believe is the lie.'

Fall out boy always lifts me up in my time of need.


Mmmmmm. I love my mom. I love my sister. I love my dad.
I love edward cullen. Who is my husband, bytheway (:

Im craving robeks like no other. I want to drive there right now. Damn my age.

Summers stressful as hell.
But I can do it (?)
Of course I can.
I CAN DAMN IT.
I AM GLASS HALF FULL
I AM I AM I AM I AM I AM I AM I AM I AM

So as you can see, my summer just WONDERFUL.

23 MORE DAYS TILL BREAKING DAWN HOLY SHITTAKE MUSHROOM!!

Im so excited I can hardly hold it in.

AND TWILIGHT THE MOVIE ON DECEMBER 12TH!!!
That's ALSO FRICKEN EXCITING.
But its so far away :[

So I've deceided to make this post about the twilight saga.

Get ready, this is going to be a long one...


Well firssssst, I REALLY like Robert Pattinson playing as Edward. He has that defined jaw and he's supadupa fioneee. I just don't think he has the caramel, velvet voice that Edward is supposed to have, ydig? And Kristen Stewart is okay...but her voice is also all wrong and her face is too hard. She needs to be more clumsy-acting and look really vulnerable. Carlisle is okay, Esme is okay, Emmett needs to be slightly more buffer but other than that, he fits. Jasper is HOT and really relaxed looking which is good. I LOVE ALICE. She fits SO well. Just the way I picutred her fshuree. Rosalie is :/ she needs to be more beautiful. I mean I know no one can be as beautiful as Rosalie in the books but the girl playing it is eh :/ The girl playing victoria is too...hmm lets go with light. I've probably watched every interview, ever preview, and every behind the scenes I could find on youtube. And there was one interview with the girl that's playing Victoria; and she seems so sweet. But its just that Victoria isn't supposed to be sweet -_-x I don't know though, as long as she can act it, its fine. So anyways, I watched probably every interview that Robert Pattinson and Kristen Steward come out in and they would make SUCH a cute couple. But Kristen Stewart has a boyfriend :[ and they're four years apart, but that's not bad right? My parents have a age difference of 3 years. Im not a big fan of the trailer though. The trailer(to me) makes it seem like Robert and Kristen can't really act :[ Robert Pattinson BETTER have one fricken alluring crooked smile like Edward is supposed to. Because if he doesn't, that'll ruin the movie ;(


So now that im done talking about the movie, its time for Breaking Dawn >:) im like, SUPER TROOPER excited. But I was reading comments on a youtube video on twilight and some BITCH totally ruined it by yelling out to the whole world that Bella gets bitten in Breaking Dawn. And SHIT, I was pissssssssssed. I was going to throw something at my working-now broken again- computer. And I don't really like the cover of Breaking Dawn, the chess thing. It kind of throws the whole vampire thing off. Ehkneewayz. Im so glad that Breaking Dawn isn't going to be the end of the saga. Im FRICKEN excited for Midnight Sun too!! Ahhhh so many things to anticipate(did I use that in the right context? -_-x)! OH and then there's the twilight paperback that's going to come with a poster!! Im SO getting that. & plus the next two movies after twilight, oh wait, next THREE movies >:] speaking of posters, I saw that on Stephenie Meyers website and I was reading about how she came up with the idea of Twilight and I was blown away. It was so simple. She dreamed that there was two people, a girl and a beautiful shining boy, standing in a sunny meadow and were arguing. Arguing that they couldn't do something because the guy could kill her at any second. And she started writing when she got up. She apparently didn't have a day where she didn't write at least something. And that's how it all started. She wasn't going to get it published but her sister encouraged her to and im GLAD. Sosososossoososo GLAD (: the name before Twilight was Forks; and im happy she changed it to Twilight.

So im going to preorder my copy soon YAY!!



Have YOU preordered yours yet?

I love I want I need. cnt.

Oh, and im HUNGRY.

I love I want I need.

I LOVE HANADAN 1 & 2
I LOVE MATSUJUN & OGURI SHUN
I LOVE INOUE MAO
I WANT TO SEE THE MOVIE
I WANT TO BUY SEASONS ONE AND TWO
I WANT TO REWATCH BOT SEASONS FOR THE 4TH TIME
I WANT TO BE LIKE MAKINO TSKUSHI
I WANT TO LEARN JAPANESE
I WANT TO BE FNISHED WITH TUTOR HOMEWORK
I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP
I NEED A BREAK FROM SAT PREP
I NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT
I NEED A COMPUTER
I NEED TO GET OUT
I NEED A GOOD LAUGH
I NEED TO BE STRONG.
I NEED TO STOP BLOGGING
I NEED TO STOP PMSING
EE KU SO !!






That is all.

Erased a number you couldn't forget.

'Have you ever loved.
Like in the movies where they fall in love at first sight.
Stayed up all night on the phone.
Bragged to the world.
Waited in the pouing rain.
Ran like crazy towards them.
Secretly watched them.
Gone crazy.
Pretended not to see them.

Of course you have loved.
Gone broke because of anniverseries.
Said sorry even after you did well.
Stayed up all night writing a love letter.
Moved a date with your family.
Prayed to God for them not to hurt.
Avoided friends.
Missed them.
Watched their backs as they left.'

---

'Have you ever broken up.
Had your makeup erase in the rain.
Cut your long hair.
Picked up a cigarette even though you quit.
Avoided a place thinking you might meet them.
Written a letter you couldn't send.
Get drunk and dial their number.
Had your lips freeze.'

Of course you have broken up.
Hated them as much as you loved them.
Torn a letter you couldn't read.
Erased a number you couldn't forget.
Celebrated an anniversary on your own.
Burned all the pictures.
Thought that all the sad songs in this world were about you.'


Huh.
I can totally relate.

&btw, 1st day of alpha was greatttt. Mr.kim is so...REAL, yknow? Like, he has so much experience. He had a story for everything he said to us. In just the hour that I was there(supposed to be 2 hours, but me padre was late) he gave the class so much to think about. Im actually really looking foward to tutor now. Because I've decieded that I want the choices that he says we'll have if we study hard. I want to be happy and work for something I love to do.

Blarg. Okay goodnight!

kimmyoung style.

"Your lap makes a good pillow, you know."

I laugh. "Well thanks, Ill take that as a compliment."

"It is."

------

"Hey! I missed you at lunch. What happened?" I ask.

"Listen, we need to talk."

"Uhm..okay."

He takes me by the hand and leads me over to an isolated table.

"Okay, so whatsup?" I question.

"Do you realy think our relationship is working?"

"... what?"

"I mean, we never see each other. I only have 1st lunch twice ever two week. We only talk through texting and AIM. And your always busy so we never get a chance to hang out."

"I thought you liked texting better than talking on the phone."

"I do. Its just that, we never get the chance to really talk, you know?"

"I don't really understand..."

"I don't think this relationship is going to work, Alyson. Do you?"

I don't respond. I fidget with my backpack straps and stare at the ground.

"Look at me Aly."

I slowly tilt my head up. I already feel the tears welling up, but I can't show them in front of him. I won't.

"Yeah. I don't think so either."

"Okay. Think we can still be friends?"

'Friends my ass.'
I plaster a fake smile on my face.
"Yeah sure, of course."

"Good. Im glad."

"Listen, I have to go. Audreys waiting for me."

"Alright. Bye."

I give him an awkward wave before I turn and dash out the front gate. The stashed tears start streaming down my face like bullets.
Audrey sees me. The first thing she does is wrap me in a big hug. 'Yeah, that's my best friend' I think.

"Did he do what I think he did?"

"Oh yeah," sob, "he did." its all I manage to choke out between sobs.

I take my phone out of my pocket and press speed dial 2.

Ring, ring.

"Hello? Aly? Do you want me to pick you up now?"

Hoping she won't recognize my sad voice I say,
"No mom, we're only halfway done. Im going to need another 10 minutes."

"Alright babygirl, take your time."

"Thanks mom. Love you. Bye."

Click.

While I have my phone out, I open my text message inbox. It reminds me that my inbox is 88% full. 157 texts from him.
'Hi girlfie, how's your day? :)'

'I need one of your hugs right now.'

'I miss you.'

'I love you.'

I press the menu button and go down to the 'Delete All' button. I hesitate, my fingers shakily hovering over the OK button.

"You don't have to do it so quick Aly." Audrey tells me.

"No, I need to. Its going to hurt more later if I don't."

I press down on it quickly, firmly. It takes a moment since there are so many.

'All messages deleted.'

------

For a month and a half, I thought I was in something close to love. What was the love that I thought I was in? An endless line of text messages, myspace comments, and hugs. Ridiculous isn't it? And it all ended because he started liking one of my best friends. REALLY ridiculous now huh? It hurt a hella freaking lot at first to see them hugging or holding hands at school. And gosh, at first, I tried to hate his guts. But I couldn't. Then just a month later, he fucked up his relationship with my old best friend. Well, that's probably when I really started hating him. Now? He's a player that everyone hates that fucks with girls lives.
But now, when I look back at it, more than 6 monthes later, I realize that I was really, truly happy for that month and a half span when I was with him. I truly liked him at the time, and im glad that I got to be with him before he became all weird. So I guess I can't really say I regret being his girlfriend. And I really have to thank my friends and my sister for helping me through it. 'He's not worth it, he's not worth it. He doesn't deserve you. You can do 10000 times better.' My sister would say. And at the time, I couldn't get myself to believe those things.
As for me, im doing just fine now. I got a little crush on a guy at summer school, and my home and social life are guh-reat. I see him in the halls sometimes, but it doesn't hurt anymore. We may lock eyes once in a while, and yeah, I have an urge to mouth 'fuck you', but seriously? He's not worth it, and I can do 10000 times better.

summa schooooool 08.

So just last week,
I read my sisters blog...

AND ITS FCKN AMAZING.
Mayun, I wish I could write like that. One of her entries even made me cry.
And her entries actually have meaning...
Unlike mine -________-xx

But anyways, im going to try to start writing meaningful-ish entries.


....


After this one. (:

So summer school started monday. And it SUCKS. All we do is practice keyboarding, get completion questions to do, and take tests ! + the class is waaaaaay too freaking quiet for my taste. & the first day, I was sitting next to vivian, but the computer that I was at(next to vway) had issues, so I had to move to the seat in front of the door. So now I sit next to a girl that looks like a duck! And mr. Huang has an unclesam accent, so I can barley understand what he's saying -__-x buuuuuuut. There's this cute guy in the class (: he has nice, swishy hair & nice legs. YUM ! But he sits in the back :[ but we did brush arms once ! Kekekekeke(sorry kcj)

Okay I have a test tomorrow. And another one the day after tomorrow.
And probably another one the day after that.
Sigh. Its never going to end.
Who knew ic3 was going to include so much work ?

Oh, and im taking the alpha test tomorrow. Yay tutor! -_-x well, at least its better than kumon. Ew kumon. I mean, what kind of name is kumon? A stupid name! Oh and did I mention how hot it was today ? FREAKIN hot ! Like, ridiculously hot. I was sweating my ass off -_-

OKAY back to the tests. I should probably sleep so that:
A. I can concentrate on my tests tomorrow and not doze of
B. I can grow taller [so I can be a baller](HAHA JKAY)
C. Less pimples! [GYEAHHH!]

Alrighty then.
Good night
Let the bed bugs bite.

I wish...

I hate it when my parents 'argue'.
It scares the shit out of me.
Like one of them goin to suddenly go all phycho and throw something or jut get up and leave.
Its 2 30 in the fckng morning and I can't fall asleep.
I really don't have anything else to write. Other than I miss summer07 and I wish I had a computer so I can rewatch gokusen or hyd to pull my stress out. And I fckng wish my parents will get better.
Well I guess I should try and go to sleep again.

Wish me luck.

Goodnight.

Random topics

Honestly ? Im not sure what to write. Nothing happened today. Well, I went to the library, big whoop. But I don't know, I had this sudden urge to go on blogspot :]
So lets see... what's there to discuss...
I want to go to school :[ summer is super boring so far. Yeah sure its only like, the 2nd week but still! Last year, I was at winnies house 3 times a week by the second week of summer.
Speaking of winnie... I feel like we're growing apart from each other. We never talk anymore. Its super saddening.(is saddening a word ?) ehkneewayz...
I REALLY need a new computer. Actually, scratch that, I need a COMPUTER. How I survived 2 and a half monthes with no internet connection, which means: no k&j dramas, no kevjumba or ndtitanlady, no blogspot!, no changing my profile constantly on aim, no downloading new music :[, and no putting up new pictures on myspace D;
Yeah I'll admitt, the last one wasss sort of shallow and gay, but its true.
Wow its 1:39 am. I spent like, 2 hours watching The Devil Wears Prada before I washed up. Sigh, ortho tomorrow. I'd best get some sleep.
I can't tell if this post is long or now but it looks ridiculously long on my sidekick. Btw my sidekick looks reallllllly boring and bland. I need something to put on the back. Sure, I could put an endless amount of cue pictures since the back of the sidekick is so ridiculously wide; but I want to do something more original, unique ydig ?!
Wow I went off topic. Goshdarnit im turning into ashley. Well, I should REALLY go now or im going to be shruper cranky tomorrow.

Adiosss.

1st blog!

augh. so i forgot my other blog's password so i just deceided to make a new one.
let's see, let's see... what has happened. well, i finished the first gossip girl book yesterday. sure, it was just a tad bit overrated and overdramatic; but pretty good nonetheless. & now, i really want to see the show because everyone says its good.

school's over. no more middle school
NO MORE MIDDLE SCHOOL.
no more chaparral
no more ms lacerte and mrs strand
no more dbl
no more chill classes
no more group tests
no more doing hw at lunch
no more yearbook
nothings going to be the same.
i can feel it.
not to be pessimistic of course, but i mean really, isnt it a duh? maybe the first year. but i know not all my my friends and i are going to be the "best besties for life". Best friends. whatta over used term. whatta misused and misunderstood and underestimated word.

but anyways, i have to go soon so im not going to go into anything deep for right now.
LAKERS LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOST GAME 3 :[[
but its okay! because we still have another 4 games !

okay, im just sorta kinda a bit tired.
and i need energy to go watch dont mess with the zohan with katie,mich,ashley,ann,priyasha&marqueer tomorrow. and i know thats going to be tiring -__-x

so gnight!
sleep tight.
im going to dream of TOP tonight ! :]