1 31 09

WELLLLL,
i didnt make mavyn marvels.
but hey, its okay.
i mean, i havent danced in 5 monthes
and i got call backs
so i did fine.
whoo for high self esteem!

but, next auditions;
i'll be there.

012909

Why are my people skills so bad?
My dad has GREAT people skills. I mean, he has friends at the McDonalds morning drive through! -____-
So why am iiii so damn awkward?
My sister took all of the genes...
Daaaaaamn.



And also, why can't some people just SUCK IT UP and deal with their own problems? Why must some people be SO sensitive that they have to cry so many times, in the same day, over a useless unsettlement? AUGH fucking agitating I swear.



Notes to self: get my lotion back from egg head; find sketch book and get rubber gloves for graphics; study punnett squares, phenotypes, genotypes, homozygous, heterozygous shit cos I don't know jack.

jan 21, 09

I MISS DBL )=



And also, fit, in-shape Alyson, where the hail have YOU gone?
Getting all fat and packing on the pounds?
Oh no no no, this will NOT do.



Mmph. I haven't been genuinely happy in a while =/
Not cool. Most definitely not cool.


Just putting on that forced smile on erryday so I don't drag other people into my problems.
Its not like my lifes all that bad.
I mean, it could be A LOT worse.
But I was always so ... happy in middle school.
So cheery and joyful and outgoing.

Its only year one of HS and its already getting to me.
Wontastic -_-

1/8/09

WHATTA GOOD DAY (=

1/6/09

I hate school.


There's nothing to look forward to anymore.

Hmpfh.

My STUPID self-confidence. If I could just gather up enough courage to start a conversation with him and actually get to know him then itd be so easy.
AURGH BLOO BLEE RAH
I get so frustrated with myself easily...

I should try, or at least attempt to fix my problems -_-
Oh, and I should prooooobably get around to making a new years resolution...
Yeeeeeeeeeeeeah.